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~KK

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HAHAHA… Isn’t that funny Amy? …. Amy?!?

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Hell yeah.

~KK

What do you guys think she’d play: Horde or Alliance?

Judge Judy learns about World of War… what was that again? Say it slower…

Best not rob this lady. She’s packing… an axe.

Here’s a great video of her reaction to someone trying to rob her store. Classic!

~KK

Ah, Halloween! You were such a great holiday when I was young. I got to dress up as superman and run around like a hellion demanding candy from people. Now I just demand candy from people. I used to dream about one day being able to roll someone’s yard! (My parents weren’t really into letting me do that because it was “wrong” or something.) Now, I’m just too old and tired to do it. I have maybe rolled one yard in my life. I say may because I don’t remember it if I did.

I titled this post “The Haunting” in reference to the way the past often looms over us and reminds us of our mistakes and failures. For some reason, I was reminded of someone who I was a jerk too and basically napalmed a bridge so much that I never really got in touch with this person again. (This was pre-WoW days just to clarify things a bit.) Like most things, it was something pretty simple that got blown out of proportion. Straw meet Camel’s back.

This person was a mentor to me. I don’t care what others think about him, he was someone that I respected and made me feel there was a possibility that I could actually be a good friend. He was someone who trusted me with responsiblities. He believed in me.

But I, being a young, depressed arrogant prick, didn’t realize that people make mistakes. (Gee, you think?) So I blew it. I blew my chance of forgiving and being a real friend to this person. It has haunted me for years. I have looked back wondering what life would be like had I just let my petty anger go. I wonder if we’d still be in contact today.

I recently wrote another friend of mine asking how his life was going. He wrote back with real life stuff going on with him and then asked if I was serious about wanting to know or just making small talk. Wow. I didn’t take that as a jab at all. It made me pause and think of all the times I have skimmed the surface of someone’s life, just enough to have something to say to them. “Hi Bob.” “Hi Tom.” You get the picture. I’ve probably been guilty of it in my marriage at times. You ask a question only because you know you should. How sad.

We are so protective. I am so self-absorbed. I will ask questions in hopes that they’ll return the question so I can vent or talk about me.

I think we do it for many reasons. Habit, safety, indifference, boredom. I suppose High School will do that to us. I can’t count the number of times I “thought” I was friends with someone in HS and then found out how they really felt after my back was turned. I guess it’s kinda like walking in the dark. Only takes one time of slamming your head into the wall to discover that you do a heck of a lot better if you keep your arms out to protect you from doing that again. Even then, we still stub our toes don’t we? Today I’ve been thinking about my “friends”. I realize that I cannot be everyone’s BFF, but I should at least be aware of those around me who need unconditional friendship. Sometimes I wish I lived closer to some of you so I could be your friend outside of World of Warcraft. It’d be interesting to see if it’d work. WoW is like a buffer. Keeping us at arm’s length. There is no doubt in my mind that real friendships can form via online gaming, but will they last?

I make excuses why I am this way. I am ashamed to admit that sometimes I look at others and think what crappy friends they are. I have asked many times why I seem to surround myself with broken people. Why do I always get burned when someone doesn’t stick by me as much as I “think” I’d stick by them if they were in need. Maybe I expect too much.

All of this to say, I need to be a better friend to those I have known for a while, my wife and those I meet. Sure it is going to suck getting burned (karma is a …), but maybe it’ll be worth it. I’ll let you know.

~KK

They just fall on their face crying their little hearts out. OMG this is funny. Thanks KP for the link!

~KK